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Hear Me Now BY: Framing Hanley

<<Say So Long To Innocence For Underneath The Evidence You Taste Like HEAVEN But GOD Knows Your Built For SIN>>

I don't know what's wrong with me. There's to much hate && resentment in my heart.  I feel like it's taking over me. Like one day  I will look deep inside myself && there will be no good left in my soul. I don't know who or what has made me so bitter. But there it is am bitter && I don't know how to stop myself from being so.  I want notting, yet everything all at the same time.  I hate everything and most of all myself for hating everything so much.  I feel like I will never live up to my standards not someone elses but my own.  I am cold && indiffrent.  I love myself fiercely, yet I hate me all at the same time.  Am like a plague everything I touch dies because I've made it that way.

So I Don't Know Watz Goin On In My Mind AnyMore..

Derz Diz Guy I've Know Him Since Childhood..

A While Ago He Call Me..We ReNewed Our Friendship..

At First It Was Great Talking About Old Times && Catching Up On New..

Where Both Really Busy With School So The Times We've Been Able To Hang Are Few..

Eventually Things Turn Romantic..I Knew They Would..I Wanted Them Too..

At First I Thought It Was Great..

Soon EveryTime We Saw Each Other it Became About Making Out..

In My Heart I Wanted && Want So Much More Than That..

I Thought For Sure He'd Ask Me Out..He Never Did..

We Made Silly Plans That To This Day Haven't Happen..

His Txt Me Alot Of Times Saying He Wants To See Me The Last Couple Of Days..

EveryTime I Make An Excuse Not To See Him..

Cuz I Know What Will Happen..He'll Just Want To Make Out..

&& I Know I Wont Be Satisfied With That..

I Want The Good Times To Be There To..When We Talk && Laughed..

I Really Care About Him..I Do..

But My Heart Hungers For More Than He Is Giving Me..

Uugh I Just Think I Should Of Never Let It Get Romantic..

I Miss My Friend && Don't Know How To Get Him Back..

...'do not you think me very ugly? That is true, said Beauty, for I cannot tell a lie; but I belive you are very good natured. So I am, said the monster: but then, besides my ugliness, I have no sense'...

- Beauty and the Beast

The Party Death: Pin Prick

<3 This Song

Heartache To Heartache

We Stand

No Promises..No Demands

Love Is A Battlefield

So I Came Upon These Little Poem/Saying I Dunno WhatEver You Want To Call It.

To Make It Clear..I Didn't Write It..Don't Know Who Did..Just So No1 Will Say I Ripped Some1's Words Off.

Well I Feel Like It Really Describes How I Feel Right Now.

Ummm Here It Is..

She Says She's Fine

But She's Going Insane

She Says She Feel Good

But She's In Alot Of Pain

She Says It's Nothing

But It's Really Alot

She Says She's Okay

But Really She's Not

Uuum So Where Do I Start. 

Am Hella Stressed Out Right Now.    

It's Three In The Fuckin' Mornin' && I Can't Go To Sleep. 

I Haven't Eaten Anything All Day..I Tried To Eat But What I Managed To Get Down..Came Right Back Out. 

I Know I Need To Get A Grip But I Just Can't Right Now.

Am Just Scared.

Am Dreading What's To Come.

I Show People On The Outside That I Don't Give A F*ck.

On The Inside Am So F*ckin' Scared. 

I Hate Not Knowing What Will Happen Next..Being Left On A Limbo.  

Aaaaaaaaaaah I Just Feel Like Pulling My Hair Out && Screaming On The Top Of My Lungz.

Like Punchin (Him) Who Has Me So Stressed To My Hearts Desire.  

I Just Wish I Would've Never Seen (Him) Again..But His Back && I Have To Deal With Sh*t Once && For All. 

I Just Wish I Wasn't  Feelin Like A F*ckin' Sissy Right Now.

"People Who Died"

"Outside by: Staind"

And you
bring me to my knees again
All this time,
that I can beg you please,
yeah

All the times
that I felt insecure, yeah
And I lift my burden out the door

I'm on the outside
I'm looking in
I can see through you
See your true colors
'Cause inside you're ugly
You're ugly like me
I can see through you
See to the real you

All this time
that I felt like this won't end
Was for you
And I taste what I could never have
It's from you
All those times that I tried, my intention, full of pride
And I waste more time than anyone

But I'm on the outside
I'm looking in
I can see through you
See your true colors
'Cause inside you're ugly
You're ugly like me
I can see through you
See to the real you

All the times that I've cried
All this wasted, it's all inside
And I feel, all this pain, stuffed it down
It's back again
And I lie here in bed, all alone, I can't mend
And I feel tomorrow will be okay

But I know

That I'm on the outside
I'm looking in
I can see through you
See your true colors
'Cause inside you're ugly
You're ugly like me
I can see through you
See to the real you

Combo of Three Days Grace: Never To Late && Nickelback: Savin Me

*I Love The Originals Way Better But Daim He Sings So Good*

Liars && Cheaters..Thats all there is..Which one are you??