Isn't This How You'd Like Me?? | mel559's Blog

I don't know what's wrong with me. There's to much hate && resentment in my heart.  I feel like it's taking over me. Like one day  I will look deep inside myself && there will be no good left in my soul. I don't know who or what has made me so bitter. But there it is am bitter && I don't know how to stop myself from being so.  I want notting, yet everything all at the same time.  I hate everything and most of all myself for hating everything so much.  I feel like I will never live up to my standards not someone elses but my own.  I am cold && indiffrent.  I love myself fiercely, yet I hate me all at the same time.  Am like a plague everything I touch dies because I've made it that way.